Looking Back

Reflection

It has been a while since my last post (almost three years actually). And yes, I’ve been busy. My life had been a series of roller coasters that so many things took place in the last years. Looking back, I could say that it was been a very fruitful years for me and at the same time a years of trials and sorrow.

Few of the good things that happened to me was that I was hired as an employee by a government agency which had given me more financial rewards and benefits and I have met a lot of new friends from my current employment who became very dear to me. I was able to pay my debts which I incurred during my previous employment (because they’re not paying us on time). I enrolled and finished Methods of Teaching (as I plan to become a teacher someday). And I was able to pursue my studies in Law after stopping for five years (hopefully to graduate in 2020).

I fell in love and hurt. I fell from a stair and hurt my elbow; I was in pain for days and in a cast for two weeks just so lucky that my elbow wasn’t fractured. 

The most dreadful thing that happened to me and to my family was the passing of our youngest sister Joan. She was diagnosed with gastrointestinal tuberculosis and after 6 months of treatments she died last February this year at 31 years old. It was a very hard and trying time for us and it hurt us so badly seeing her suffering and we could not do anything to ease her pain. It saddened us very much that she left us but we felt relieved because we know that she is already at peace and not in pain anymore. 

My sister was survived by her eight-year-old daughter and I became an instant mother – which I accepted wholeheartedly. I am planning on legally adopting her and making her my own. 

As I reflect on these memories, I realized that I have so many things to be thankful. There were happy moments and unfortunate ones. I can say that all those things that happened to me made me a better person than before. It also gave me a more purpose in life by giving me a daughter that I will love and care for the rest of my life (although I have been loving her before as my niece).